This is the end

Today I saw real happiness. To be happy is to not care about what people say. To be happy is to let go. To be happy is to be free. To be happy is to go all out. To be happy does not require courage but with the urge to feel happy, you will feel happy.

There are so many ways to be happy, but I just can't seem to find the right path. Perhaps as always I chose to road less taken, it may take longer time and effort, but I assure myself that though it is harder and longer, but happiness will come my way very soon. Just one very fine day it will. And the year is coming to an end, new year new leaf new change.

Happy New Year.

LAFU

When all things comes together nicely, someday it'll break apart.

Physically and Mentally tired

I am so freaking tired these days. Since my trip back from Macau and Zhuhai I have been so so so tired I cannot be bothered to think about ANYTHING. My mind is perpetually blanked out during work, which I very much enjoy cause I hate thinking about soooo many things that will lead to expectations and reality comparisons once again and let's not go there.


When they say when a girl is quiet she is thinking about a million things, it IS very true.


But not now, I am so tired all I want to do now is curl up in my bed after a nice shower smelling good and with freshly blown hair and snore.


I've forgotten what it is like to wakeup at whatever time I wish to because there is something call morning shift EVERYDAY for the past 3 days. -.-


And because so many things are going on right now with the christmas and new years coming, I prefer to not think about anything and pretend that nothing is happening. My life is too happening these days with all the shopping and eating I am now flat broke. I just spent my future pay in Topshop (sorry la didn't buy a lot but enough to eat up my pay cause my pay is so little T_T)


The year is coming to an end, I want to savior the last few moments but yet I want it to go because I want a change, it's been a really hard year for me. =( All the living alone and all the bad things happening one aftr another, it hurts a lot. =( Not sure if I am going to recover from that in 2010 but I am sure something good WILL happen.



Merry Belated Christmas. :)

Assumptions

Because when you simply make assumptions you simply bring out the ass in you and me. That is the equation for Assume. Because when you do not know what exactly is happening I suggest you keep things out of sight and out if mind till people involved tells you, or just keep quiet and not know it forever. But when you simply do not know how it works, do not assume.

The Queen

Queen is taking a short vacation to Macau.


Write to me then. :) Leave a comment.

Today

I actually felt happy working today. Not sure if it's the extra short break or extra tired legs or the sudden surprise of 2 old friends' surprise visit (and got a shock). For the first time (out of the 4 days) I feel, happy, with my job. And not so happy after paying my ticket and leaving 1 utama cause the jam was a bitch.


I need you guys to do me a favour. Talk to me, leave a comment, a thought or anything. I'll respond to it once I have time. That 4 anonymous who left me a comment in the previous post, made me smile. :)

Copied from somewhere, but it lives to nowhere.

beautiful words from often nameless faces. sad songs from the deepest of places. secret words from the fingers of strangers. this place is safe; so bare your soul, break down the walls, say farewell to your fears and forget all judgement; let go.

tell me a story. tell me a secret. tell me a joke. tell me what happened today. share, even if you're tom, dick or harry. :)

dashi

because all these circumstances that did not allow me to vent it out. Everything, just everything that I have always want to say but no, something would just come up, either a good news, or one night's sleep that flushes the things down, and then you would just shut up and let it stay inside, hidden forever and ever. Until one day, you will just crumble. I have been anticipating that one day, I wonder how would it be like, and what will happen after that. And that one time, does not only involve me, alone.

Beezay

Almost 24 hours on call, standing on a pair of gray flats and funeral attire, with a forced smile. I stood there, almost unreal, going to and fro this room with racks of clothing and accessories.

It is real.


Yes bitches I am working. I think I saw someone who knows me yesterday and they recognize me and smirked and the best thing is I do not know them! :D Because what seemed so glamorous wearing funeral clothes and pretty jewelry standing at one corner saying hello goodbye is not what it seems.

I am pretty furious the fact that my parents did not expose me to these sort of experience no thanks to them not allowing me to work (not sure about now but I have yet to inform them lalala). It is not something that I LOVE lovelove doing, but in just 2 days, I learnt a lot. Not something you see while shopping. But what comes behind those pretty arrangements came with many stories.

I would say, working is like shopping in several hours in the same shop, seeing and to be seen. And it is very tiring. I finally get what my friends feel when they were working.



I am now working in Accessorize 1 Utama. If you want to say HI or see me suffer kindly drop by. If you do not see me, it's either (a) I'm not working that day (b) I'm on break (c) I'm in the store (d) I stopped working wtf


There. See you soon.

Poke my eye

I think over the years, or maybe just starting from this year I've learned the fact that my nose will always be as bulbous as ever (all hail Hoe genes). I've learnt the fact that I can not change a thing about it unless I massage it every day in a certain manner, not in public eye of course, or just slice it up and reconstruct it. I noticed that I am accepting it, more than ever. I am not sure if it is because my face got bigger (fml) or that I've accepted it, I think it is now smaller, more shapely, not as ugly.


Or maybe I am just making myself feel happier because no one cares whether who's happy.

Latest Update

Because my life doesn't seem to sad these days, short update with minimal captions and updates.

• I am currently looking for a job, anyone can help??!? I'm fine with anything I just wanna make my resume look, NICER. Right now my resume is, EMPTY, it's like a house, you need furnitures.

• Selling lotsa clothes from Aussie and Bangkok at Boudoir-Boudoir

• Got a haircut, and you've prolly seen it in manman's blog. But yeah, here are my version of edited pictures, no guarantees of same face in other person's blog >.>

It happened on a rainy friday, 5 hours before my bus departs, 45 minutes drive down to Starry Hill (Bukit Bintang wtf) for a much needed hair rescue after 5 months, I lied. I "trimmed" my hair in September but stupid stylist did not understand the term trim and snipped off 2 inches. 2 inches translates to 3 months of non-stop nurturing, washing and conditioning, 2 bottles of Schwarzkopf Intense Repair shampoo and conditioner EACH. Which cost me at least RM 70 for all 4 (I know right and they're 400ml bottles, the 200ml 3/4 filled bottles selling in KL should rot in hell)


And Yen arrived slightly late due to the mad traffic, and she came to me and asked "Do you want blunt bags?" Almost teary eyed, I answer "I want~" yes with the curly dash for an extra effect of "teh-ness".

And I went from big bun centre parting mop

with runny nose (blame the weather)

to


cock-eyed gap-banged wig

Gap-bang cause there is ALWAYS gap somewhere around the fringe area. -.-


Went down to Singapore for birthday celebrations with the sisters and the Melbourne bunch. Because I think this would be the one and only time we'll be celebrating birthdays together. *sigh*


They got me 9 mini cakes, with one candle. So much for age shall be kept as a secret.









Series of fine dining (cept for the first picture that is country pie from Coffee Club) rest is from Pre-Birthday dinner at White Rabbit. It is LOVE.

Guess how much the total came up to? SGD 213.80. fml. And so much for serving us San Pellagrino still water, we were charged 5 bucks per bottle (consider cheap T_T) but it was all worth it. Because my foie gras was melting in my mouth, numbing all my senses.


and decided to ridicule ourselves in a fine dining place.



An overly exposed (both my boob and the picture) picture of me. Showing how wig-ish my hair can be if not well kept. And also cause I spent 25 bucks on a hair wash. yeay me.




i want big tables and chairs in my garden, a place where I can feel small :)





we were rather gone that night. Or was it me. Dropped by Zouk right after we touchdown at Copthorne Orchid Singapore. We is hardcore. All for the sake of seeing my loved sister once we touchdown. :)

Life awaits me.


BUY MY SHIT!!! :D

South!

Emergency trip down south. Be back on wednesday, not that you care. :)

Status Update

Hui Ting is having some self-confident issues.