Everything will be okay.

I realise everytime I try to type playokay I typed play. <--perfect example. -.- It may be a sign for me that things will turn out fine in the end and I can play. =P No that was typed play intentionally, not okay.

And here is to my bestfriend/soulmate/husband/wife who's going through shit now, no thanks to some effed up education system at this university of a state with a huge Bridge name Golden <-- playing with words here I don't have to be so direct hor? people with common knowledge or have read my blog long enough will know :P

Please change the get well soon to everything will be okay.

I strongly believe in this sentence cause it helped me gone through shits as well and alas I am all fine and dandy here. Okay is enough, because then you can expect better things.,not best but better so then things can only come out better and better and better and the best thing is when you die wtf. And because when you expect GREAT things, things will only turn out okay. So yeah, I'm not greedy, I'm fine with being okay. :)

Previously

The last time I saw the skies so clear, lit up with nothing but stars, were long ago. To be exact, it was during my flight from Kuala Lumpur to Melbourne. I always choose overnight flight because I love it when I wake up from a short nap, I'll be greeted with the milky way. I've always loved how dark the skies can get and try to spot Orion's belt. Because that's my star sign and I've always believed in it. I was in the plane alone.

Then today, it struck me how bright the stars were shining. Rain drops on the oak tree were glistening under the newly repaired street lights, like a million new stars that fell from the galaxy, colliding with each other, causing explosions of glory. I was driving home, alone.

Cheeeeena

UPDATE: IS IT ME OR THESE DAYS A LOT OF FUCKING SPAM COMMENTS?? WTF?!!


In approximately 2 weeks it'll be Chinese New Year. Diet plan succeeded and failed recently and I have yet to own any CNY appropriate clothing. Most of my clothes (including new ones) are either black or white or grey I AM SO BORING!!!

But then again I don't have the practice of wearing ang ang every year. I just realised that during CNY as long as I'm not wearing black or white I'm fine :D I'll find my own excuse by using my super pro chinese speaking skills to turn from black to red WTF!


Anyway, Velvet-Ribbon is updated with Bangkok goodiessssss <3

:(

Coming back to an empty room after a hot shower, basic skin routine, and as I took off my glasses and switched off the lights has reminded me that my life back in Melbourne was truly alone.

photoshop queen

having only 3 hours of sleep had got me insane. ( i slept at 1 and i woke up at 4 fml)


Here i am, stalking again on facebook and I stumble across shit Leng Yein person, I dunno who she is but I know she is hot as hell with tan and the flattest tummy, i dunno what other terms I should use but I cannot use stomach cause that's like where your gaster juice is produced wtf, yeah.


So anyway as I was stalking some 3 albums our of her 96thousand albums of her life (gee woman you have like 20 albums just from christmas till now)


And I found that this shit is indeed not real! :D Sorry la but quite fun to let the world know (or more like those stupid perverted men on FB) that pretty picture can be photoshopped. I've done photoshopping and I know how some not good jobs (HEH) can look like so. yeah...

*click images to enlarge*

Quite fun =p


I has a junk in the trunk and d cup boobs and crooked fuse box.


I hassa 8 inch waist, 23inch was last year.


I duno, can you tell something is wrong with her dress?? Either the bottom is like flared out or her waist is liquified inwards? And the indian man's arm is like so wide compare to his biceps lor, sorry i dunno the term but the upper arm is like so skinny then suddenly the lower arm is like effing muscular jengjengjeng muscleman


Seriously I thought I had hope to be like skinny as hell cause HEY here's a real life example but is PS-ed =/ kuakuakua I'm sure this Leng Yein person in real life must be SKINNY as hell to be able to fit a bangle up to her shoulders but is it neccessary to liquify yourself to be even skinnier? =/ A little overboard imo

HAHAHAH I'm such a hypocrite talking about some top model winner of five thousand awards PS_ing herself and I myself hadn't done anything in my life kuakuakua. Told you I'm not in my right mind suppose to discuss about people then now I backfire myself pula wtf -_-

Just keep paddling

Life is like riding a bicycle - in order to keep your balance, you must keep moving.
-Albert Einstein

But what if I don't even know how to cycle? =( That explains my life is such a failure. :*(

This space needs more

Lovin from me.


I will be bombarding this blog post with pictures of ME.


ME ME ME ME ME cause I know that is why you come back <3 Woke up at 11 this morning by the sound of the house phone ringing (very loud) And it was the computer room, then living room and computer room and living room. And I knew it was my mother looking for me HAHAHAHAHAHA How smart she thought that I'll be either in the computer room or the living room. And then i went to steam my hair and have super bouncy curls. Can anyone teach me how to blow my hair till it's all bouncy and pretty? T_T No matter how much effort I put in I can never achieve that bouncy healthy looking texture T_T






SORRY because now i have no one to camwhore with already T______T And I have no one to go to random dinners and lunches when I'm hungry T____T




Ohai iz me. Sorry this is the only way to show how much I love myself. <3 And at this rate I will cry if I die wtf.

Ring a ring a rose

I don't know how to say this but, visit HERE.


It's only temporary.

A little bit, la-la-la

Because people always come and go. And you know there is those who always comes back to you no matter what happens. This week might have been the busiest and one of the saddest weeks, but they leave for something they have been wanting to achieve.

My sister left to Newcastle and my bestfriend is leaving to San Francisco. The good thing is, the sister will be seeing me more often that she'll ever thought of -_- and the bestie might come over to see me :D Nothing cheered me up than these news. :)

Till then I'll have to survive a month of loneliness. That deep empty feeling that rushes in and out. No more someone to turn off the lights for me when I sleep, no more indulging in overpriced microwave heated food (yes Dome food are microwave heated, I think Delicious is as well T_T) And then there will be no one to dress up with.


But I am a strong person, more like a rock. Nothing will make me tumble and fall again. :)

A thousand and three hundred

Tonight, I'll be sleeping alone. :(

So what if it hurts me

It's funny to see how one person is trying to learn the way I write (which I don't find it as a compliment) and the way X does it seem to be trying very hard, to prove that X did it first so it will make X feel like X is not the one following. And yes, we're pretty close.

So what if it hurts me? Does it?


It has been too long. When will the next time we be seeing again? I may not be the best to hang out with or to talk to or do I know how to layan big crowds, I may stick to only one of two of them which I am close to but I still do love all in the crowd. :) Who would have thought we'll still be going to mamak roti tissue sessions and occasional hot pot sessions? :P


It has been so long. This time we switched hairstyles!!! :D From my centre parting to bangs and then her turn! :D


I've mastered almost 50% of hairstylist way of blowing hair *cries*I almost did it just half way more! *determined*


happy family :) Yeay I finally jumped so high =P fuck that shit I look retarded when jumping muka super no maintain


can you see all the hats and bows and whatever shit?? :) Everyone brought some to share and exchange. :) We should do halloween theme next year lol


i was just being myself thanks.

oh how I love my legs look when they're curved and not standing as they resemble two chunks of radish with hair.

Suggestive names

Not sure if you noticed but I realise all the names of places things in Thailand is very... suggestive. The capital city itself sounds a tad too wrong bangkok HAHA then there's this line that goes to Bang-Sue. And then on the BTS there's this station call On-Nut. HAHA

please do yourself a favour the next time you go to Bangkok. Visit Erawan and have a kickass hi-tea for only 220Baht per person. It's at Grand Hyatt :D And also Sky Bar (not Sirocco cause it's actually the dining place and prepare to pay about RM 700 for a full course meal per pax *gulps*)

I am happy this trip cause I bought things I like but not like 5000 items that I don't really like. Come to think of it, it may not be like 100 items literally but I got about 50 items :P Ok I shall make a count later :) SO SAD they didn't have the Nars blusher in Amour in the entire freaking airport T_T

Blocked blocked

Of all the noises played out loud everyday, they seem to be filtered out as though my thoughts are screaming out loud. But no one seem to be able to hear them. And then they will whisper nothings around, nothing but misunderstandings.


How well do u know me to whisper things behind my back?

Unhealthy living

I think the number 9 is not very "ong" for me.


Because in 2009 many bad things happened and I turned 19 (not good double 9 uh-oh)


So recently I've been to the hospital several times due to a relapse of my urine infection which is the cause of the abnormal pain in my lower abdomen (not that i have abs wtf united nation ftw!!) which is excruciating. I couldn't help but to squeeze the lump of fat where it aches but it didn't help, and it hurts worse early in the morning when my bladder is full and I can't stand up after I squat =/ It hurts really badly that I felt like my back was breaking.


And so I went for urine test and ultra sound. And bacteria in the urine and now I'm waiting for the swap culture test results (yes I went to a gynae.) Then there was the series of "sensitive questions".

And now I'm living life on antibiotics. And I think everytime after I take in the meds I'll have flu fml T_T


And then one of the worst thing is that I have this really serious cavity on this molar, and it's so deep that, the dentist is afraid that he'll drill my root during filling, so I have to go on root treatment (i think it's root canal T_T) HOW BAD CAN MY LIFE BE T____T


But all that will be good after my.... deng deng... SHOPPING TRIP!! :D:D:D:D Details later but I think there is no surprise la.


And there are better things installed for me after the bestfriend and the sister leaves me T_T Hopefully that will keep me busy as a bee till I go back to Melbourne.


stay healthy ppl or you'll have to go through tonnes of tests and drilling and filling and visits to the doctors and dentists T___T seriously I'm so unhealthy but I love it. <3

Hello

Greetings,
people of the Land of Mustards,

I am the King of Mustards who is also known as Mustard King,
and I have hacked my Queen's account to check if everyone payed their taxes.

"What taxes?" you asked?
Well apparently the castle is short of fund with our Queen's spendings lately.
So I've decided that I'll start collecting taxes for every mouthful of mustard you eat.

This way, you will save the Queen and me from this crissis.

You can also donate extra cash to us too. ;)

For more info, call 1-800-donatetothemustardsplskthxbye.
Yes, that's massive long for a phone number but hey, it gets the message accross.

So what are you waiting for? Pay your taxes and donate now!

Also,
Long live the Queen!! <3

Your sincerely,
Mustard King

p.s. I'm sure the Queen is giving the WTF look by now. Lol. Hi human. Log off ur acc next time or I'll start abusing again. :p

Hatred?

I missed Melbourne. Really much.


As much as I love being at home I also hate being at home.


the loneliness, the "aura" when the TV is turned on, I don't know about you but I can feel it, when someone switched on the TV, even when I'm upstairs, it's this static feeling that makes my hair stand, you can't see it but you can feel it, it's like an aura. Weird feeling I'd say.

And then there were the times you see my grandparents arguing about the smallest things (but only fun when it didn't get too gingery) and they are cute as hell.

Then there were the times I am starving to the core and there is no food ready to be stuffed in, but only frozen raw pork and fresh green parsley.

Then there were the times I'll be spending my day at work and out with friends, and my mom will drop me a message saying "I bought tau fu water from market" which in other words meant that she bought me Jenny Hong soya bean from the market, I thought she bought tau fu fa for me and that is more relevant. =/

And then there were times when I am in NEED to wear something that I love and I cannot find it. In my room. And if you've seen the condition of my room, it is now far worst than before and no, my wardrobe space have yet to expand even though it's increased from 4 doors to 8 doors and I only have 2 doors out of the 8. Uncool. OH my 3rd door is my luggage. Sue me! I have yet to unpack because I HAVE NO ROOM IN MY OWN ROOM!!! :D Ironic right I know.

Then sometimes I feel as though being alone is such a bliss, I can do whatever I want, sing whatever I want, do air cycling like a mad woman in my room (yes aussie ppl I do that in my room back in Berwick -_-) and despite the fact that I have suffered many kinds of suffering there all alone, I grew. I grew to be more strong, more independent and even when the sky falls down I'd still have myself. I don't need a metal heart to bear pain and suffering because I know that I'll eventually get through it. It will be hard at the start, but I'm just so used to doing this all alone.

I feel like this place is slowly losing its meaning and I do not want that to happen. =( This place I start to hate and leave as soon as I could. I just don't know why. :(

New Date

I am not sure if better things are installed for me this year, but something tells me that leaving my current job is a wise choice, I've been thinking about it for the past 2 weeks and have finally made the decision but I took advantage of the staff discount and bought some pretty things <3

Maybe I can be my own guarantor to guarantee that 2010 will be a happier and better year. It will be a good year. Because everything is in your own hands, happiness doesn't come from money or the people around you, it's how YOU make or treat the people to give happiness. :)

Mushaboom

Something happened recently and it reminds me so much of what happened back then and no one could understand how closely related I felt. It was like a stab on an old wound. Ouch.

And if you are a ghost

When they say age is only a number, obviously they are not joking. Because I am only 19 people thought I'm 21 or older so yeah I totally agree with that.

it's already 2010.

Because all I have now is memories that I tried to saved in digital measures, and all I have now is jpegs and raws. I shall go develop photos one day. :)

I was feeling extra pretty that night, maybe it's the makeup or the camera or whatever, but I was happy to know that I see people getting happy and giddy :D

Succeeded in putting lower fake lashes. only RM 2 per pair from china~~~ <3

I was gobbling down prawns soaked (literally) with cream cheese and japanese mayo nom!

:) Mommy looked so happy

So, everyone wished everyone happy 2010 and it will be a good year, but who can guarantee?