Lost

I have been gaining weight. God knows what the fuck is wrong with me I am two four seven hungry. Haven't been running cause of the cold cold weather. I blame period. It's coming I swear.

And I foresee that days will be buried with tears because exams are approaching, and the assessments will be one by one revealed, and it will be harder than I thought. I am preparing my heart for the worse that has yet to come. All these bad things happening of late, is a test of my patience, my strength to overcome all these tough situations. I need to be stronger than what I am. So many weird things, so many crazy things going on. (btw, Lily Allen's "The Fear" just came on.)

And tomorrow, two of my major assignments will be given back. And after that I'll be heading to the city, just for some breather. I need my time out. I am having that feeling again, that sensation I had approximately 8 months ago. Something hit me so hard, that gave me the strive. To succeed, or to proof people wrong, whatever. I need to find back the urge to fight. I need to find back the willpower in me that gave me the kick, that lead me to what I think, it was success.


I am really scared. Or what I perceived as fear.


Please let me go through this again.

Whine whine whine yadda

Ohai. Sorry I have not been updating a lot lately. Part of the reason I am addicted to Twitter. But then again I am working, so by the time I'm back I spend my time watching ANTM :P And then I sleep really early. Like 12 midnight early!! HOW CAN then I wakeup at 9 for work. :P Then I travel for god knows how long to come back, and wash my smelly feet HAHA

SEEEEE life damn mundane right, then it's payday again. :) T_T I hope when I go back to work after my holidays I'll get pay raise T_T Cause then I'm sort of "experienced". but then again, my boss is AZN! How generous can they be! Put more food say I put too much then slightly less then say too little wtf. -_-

I wanna get a higher paying job. T_T I feel so, underpaid now T_T I heard someone working in a charity organisation and getting paid 18 per hour (normal rate for Aussie). Do I look THAT Asian no one wanna hire me T_T Should try target/kmart/DESPERATE. haha


SERIOUS LOR!!! If I'm getting paid what I'm suppose to be paid, ie 15 and above. I can buy SO MANY THINGS!! I do not even need support from the family lor (just kidding haha)


ANYWAY~~ For instant updates, follow me on my TWITTER!! I wanna have more followers so I look cool haha =p

100%

If there is one thing I want to change, that would be nothing.

There is nothing that I regret doing, there is nothing I want to change. Even if I regret it now, hey, at least at that point of time you thought you did the right decision, so why regret?

And another thing? You can't change time, but time can change you, so just accept what you have, why live in regrets when you can think that you're actually doing the right thing? As for me, whenever I have a Dejavu, I'll assume that I did the right thing, and am on the right path. That's what they always say. :)

New shit. One thing I like about me now is that, I love things that are either 100% cotton, silk, viscose but not polyester. I am so sick of paying so much for a cute top and turn it over, 100% polyester. SUCKS NO????!!!


It's like buying a 300 bucks "cashmere" sweater and turn over, it's 100% Acrylic, and made in China. Seriously. They should make more things in their own countries instead, create more job opportunities and make us feel less rip-off. But then again I still like my cheap shit, but occasionally I want my good shit!

Forever New silk slouch top. So comfy!!! I've been looking up and down for one. Not quite the perfect one, but I like how it can be casual and formal (wore this to presentation!) and knowing this is worth every single penny for a 100% silk, win!! :D

Dotti stripe dress with grosgrain sash. 100% Viscose, made love. You know those cottony silk sensation?? I love wearing this dress, so soft and comfy!!! I go for comfort now you see :) And who can say no to grosgrain!!?? I **think** it is like, queen of all ribbons. :P

You know I hate it how I always buys things from KL and bring it over to Melbourne, then all the shops will start reproducing the same thing. COME ON!!! I don't wanna have the same shit as 2873y1873ty1784 other girls here can. -_- Like my pink cardi with gold beads, now everywhere is selling it!!!! >=(

I got pissed off and got a sweater. -_- Damn cheap lor, summore it's 100% cotton, super warm and snuggly. :D And its hand sewn beads but fml hand sewn but workmanship damn bad, I think 40% of the beads fell off -__-


paperbag shorts with grosgrain bow belt from Forever New. :) Love the cut, love the bow, love the pleats at the top, love the length. :) It's viscose, linen and cotton blend. lovelovelove. :)

BOO, for more instant updates follow me on Twitter. :) But it's locked though. :P

Bird chirping.

I have succumbed and joined the twitter bandwagon.

I wasn't happy that mustardqueen was taken, so I added underscore in between. Follow me. I have absolutely no idea how do you add the box for people to see live updates at the side bar, and my sidebar is rather full as you can see. So. Prolly just a link to let people know I have a twitter.

OH anyone know how to link facebook to twitter? Cause I cannot be bothered to update my very witty lines twice!!! If updated twice then not funny already hee.

CLICK CLICK CLICK!! :)

Cambridge Batchel

You know how I'm a sucker for messenger bags, what more with some backpack straps and a top handle?

I thought I found the perfect one from Asos, and then it came over and disappoint me like my SPM results, and little did I know, it might be fate that i found a better one. Slightly more expensive but I am pretty sure that it'll worth every single penny on it. :D

this picture was taken from jakandjil. Right away, it blew my mind, with its smooth texture, shiny leather. And your name embossed on it? Perfect.

And as I was looking through the comments, susiebubble commented that it's a very common thing in London, and it's from Cambridge Satchel.

And then I went to the site and saw THIS baby. Deep Purple (smoke in the water wtfwtf) in an almost blue tone. How elegant.

Then I saw descriptions of how you can get a backpack too!! And went high and low reading the instructions on how to find a picture of the backpack strap. And was once again blown away.

little back riding hood. *heart*

YAY NAY??? I think I'll go with the shoulder purple, then a tan backpack. the red looks cute too!! And black will be really nice in that leather mmmmmmmmm fickle. ARGH I just found out the yellow is gorgeous too....

Sorry since I cannot afford the miumiu ones with the weave like material and braided top handle, I will just settle for less I'm not greedy.

Sweet sweet baby

Click to see what is it!! :)

I'm finally back!! :D So happy to be back blogging again. Quote unquote Shinee from parkandcube, blogger who doesn't blog for about a week (well blog properly not just some meh post) is like getting acute eczema, ITCHING TO BLOG!!! hahahahaha


And I have some serious infection thingy on my legs and feet, it's so itchy, not eczema, went to see a doctor with my newly renewed health care, and it was actually ringworm, sounds fucking disgusting, it looks fucking disgusting, and it is fucking itchy.... =(

Seriously, doctors should stop consulting Wikipedia when they're diagnosing their patients lor. -_- Liddat I can also become doctor can. -_- Make me lose confidence in like, paying so much to see a doctor. -_- Fingers crossed the cream helps!!! =(


Haven't been taking much pictures cause I have been so so so busy with assignments and oral tests (wtf) and tuesday I have presentation for my marketing plan!!!! I am so fucking sick of coming up with strategies, when all my strategies are about making profit, increase customer base, marketing rules bla bla bla bla. YAWN!!!!!


Still contemplating on onbre-ing my hair. Wonder if Yen would allow. :P SO PRETTY LOR!!!! I want it purple too! =D

When you wish upon a star.

When they say make a wish upon seeing a shooting star, they're lying to you.

It's just one of those stories people lie to you about when they want you to feel better about not getting what you want, as you please. It gives people hopes and dream, knowing that you might not get it, at least you wish for it, in hope one day you might have a glimpse of your dream.

And then after I knew the truth of not getting what I wish for, it didn't hurt me so much because after all, there are no free lunches at home, sacrifices must be made to achieve what you desire.

But sometimes, all you need is just a false hope. Because people know, and are aware that they are just mere hopes, even if it doesn't come true, they will still continue to hope for.

Can't get over

I cannot get over how many times I've looked at these shoes and not get bored of it. Not sure if it's the clean silk straps or the heels, or the buckle, these Balenciaga babies just took my breath over and over again I think I'm developing severe asthma.

And these Sofia Coppola for Louis Vuitton suede keepall. Touched it in real life, Love it to death and at $5050 a pop, I think I better die than to love it. But isn't it the most pretty thing in the world besides, a lot of things that I love wtf.

AUD$5050, you wanna sponsor me?

Tempted

I WANT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


Burberry Prorsum rip-off cause I know I can never afford unless I empty my bank account. And the dress is so pretty. OH and they reproduce my rosey skirt, but in another colour, meh I still love my dusk pink better =D They have black (yawn) now. -_- But at 50 pounds a pop, I consider myself winner cause I snag it at only 12 pounds! *win*

Folllloooooowwwwww

Hello followers, sorry not twitter account my blog followers. I am very extremely busy and lack of sleep.

Prolly not a good choice to go for work the day before an assignment due and talk till 5am in the morning and go to work -_- I am lack of sleep, addicted to coffee and rushing for assignments.


I am surviving of caffeine to keep me awake and listening to trance. *heart* Keep the beat going.


Promise something gooooooooooood after my assignments are all due k! This friday, at the mean time, just bear with me. I MIGHT procrastinate some time and post some random pictures so just don't give up on me YET. :)


I have some pretty rad new clothes to show and I am lovinnnnn them to bits.... *melt*

Cheap frills

Things you can do with a reduced RM 69 Topshop silk polyester tank. I hate it when it feels so nice but you know they got to be kidding you that it's real silk and yeah you were conned -_- 100% Polyester EVERYTIME I flip the tag. I miss the times when you see 100% wool, 100% Rayon, 100% Silk.

BUT THEY ALL COME WITH A PRICE T_T


But at least my topshop cardi is 90% Wool, 5 % Acrylic and 5% Mohair (wtf is this sounds like MOU as in bulu and hair blend wtf gross) :D Beats jing's 70% hahahahaha =p


Today I am going to show you, how you play, twist, and twirl with a silk top and make your very own Burberry twisty top/skirt/jacket.

crazy love

All you need is:

Silk top (optional, polyester preferred wtf)
Fingers
Creativity
Brains to think how to secure the knots


Was bored in accounting lecture and was playing with my top. Was twirling with my finger and I realise what beautiful drapes I can create with my fingers and silk!!! :D

hehe BUDGET :P Not bad right???


If you can recreate this, I'll give you a virtual slap haha


Cause I never smile

Another way of twirling. :D

Not very functional way of wearing unless you have Allesandra Ambrosio's stomach, hence me covering up wtf. It was 9 degrees k and the turtle neck was so thin *strong*


new burn from work D: And said triangle burnt mark. T_T I think end of my working life, I'll have like marks forming a cupid with an arrow wtf -_-

Condition Code

Remember this messenger bag? I got it from Asos at a hefty price and guess what? The quality is shit, and it IS very soft since it's leather and all, but too soft it lose its shape and the buckle came off. Like the twisty buckle was detached from the flap! How am I suppose to use the handle if the buckle cannot be locked?? And let my belongings fall out of it? =( So sad... It's fated la that I have to get either PS1 or Alexa cause then it'll rid my worries of buckle is faulty blablabla...


Oh and did I mention that the strap is like totally not supportive of the bag? Cause I discovered that there's a stitching at the middle of the strap, and the stitching is getting loose wtf. -_- I'm not gonna lie that this bag cost me 70 pounds, which is a lot... And I paid a hell sum to ship it back for a refund, but it's better I get about 70% of the money I paid for than to have a bag that I cannot use at all right?

T_T So sad, I really liked the bag, but it's such poor quality, and it's not like how it looks like in pictures. =( And the quality is shit leh!!! The seams were not coated with a layer or plastic to seal it together!!! And it wasn't sewn properly too. =( Maybe this is a lesson to teach me not to buy cheap things wtf (not even cheap lor -_-) Maybe buying designer brands DOES have its boons. :)


Life has been tough on me, but I am standing strong (and sleepy). Have been sleeping at 3am and waking up at 7 am just cause my body clock decided to fuck me up. And I've been waking up early during weekends as well for work. And then sleeping late for completing assignments. If you're thinking that I'm screwing my course for working, you're wrong. I am the type who can only work at night, and I procrastinate in the day, so why not work while I procrastinate!?

And pimples omg... Suppose to be cleared by now after menses but then it's still popping out due to (a) stress (b) not enough rest (c) JUNK FOOD -_- Have been binging on grain waves (mmm so good) and coffee I shall now announce I am a coffee addict!!! Hi I am Hui Ting and I am a coffee addict. MMMMMM Gloria Jean's Ice coffee with whipped cream with caramel sauce and sprinkled cinnamon is so good!! Not to mention the calories I'm taking in T_T fml

WA WA WA

I have been having this massive weight upon my shoulder. I don't know what it is, and I am not sure how I can lift it.

And then the only way I chose is to hide. To runaway from reality, in denial, hide. I'm scared to face it, and I am not sure what will I face, will I see Sadako when I lift my pillow up, or will I see a black cat under my bed? I don't know.

I was blinded by all these beautiful lies that when the truth hit me, it was the worst feeling ever, but the truth made me stronger, in a way. But yet I am hiding now. I need to come out from my rabbit hole, back to reality.

K-k-k-rush

I have been a very happy girl lately. So good to hear from the people you love, with good news. And also their voices just warms your heart. Then followed by a 6 hour long chat with Nancy, from boobs to shitting to chilli causing diarrhea to palm reading. We spent a good half hour googling how to read our palms. Hmm, looks like fate shall wait, success awaits as god creates (wtf trying to rhyme haha)

Not sure if the good news will come true but, hopefully *fingers crossed* and then it will be followed by more drama from the insecured one. :) Honey don't try impressing me with your unfulfilled words, look who's got what she wants now. :)

lemme give you one two step

WHEEEE finally got proper brogues!!!! Light tan leather, hard as hell, hurts like fuck for the first time, and it was a little too small. Prancing around after heating up with my hairdryer cause it was too hot resulting in a very high hui ting.


I can has brogues. I don't need high heels I don't need fierce shoes I just need a good pair of brogues. PAUL SMITH!!!!! No these are just leather brogues from Asos. :D



PS1 not!!!! Some leather rip-off I got while saving up wtf. I am a SUCKER for messenger bags, it's a good size, good colour, good length (shoulder strap) and I can remove the strap (or not, just tucking it in wtf) LIKE!!



my fake story book fml. -_-



what should I do next?? My lights seem to be always collapsing. NO LOVE!! =(



my new addiction. =( I am so addicted to this shit that I convince myself that to stop myself from being addicted is to finish the box (and try not to buy a new box wtf) it is fucking addictive. I had like 2 bars just typing this post, or was it 3. and I had another 1 this morning. -_- So... Oats are fiber right? That explain the active bowels these few days wtfffffff


And I watched IronMan2. It was... okay. I'm sorry I was never a fan of superhero shows cause he is not super!!!! He just uses technology and brains to figure out which wire to plug onto his chest and kaboom. And his iron will scratch wan how can!!??? Got enemy attack then scratch so lau ya!!!


Mmmmmm time to wear those new shoes and get blisters and stretch em <3

HOT CAKES

You know the pressure is DAMN ON when you had 4 breakfast bars (out of the 18 pack), 3 being half hour after you just purchase it from Safeway, and one two hours after dinner and still craving for more. Or maybe Uncle Toby added some drugs in it T_T I'm fucking addicted, how can oats taste so good and be so chewy nomnomnomnomnomnom I cannot stop eating it. WHY!!! I think I'll finish 18 bars in like. 2 days I am not kidding T_T Oh imagine the sugar intake T_T And I bought diet coke, Aspartame mmmmmmm I am so healthy wtf artificial sugar -_-

Then you realise the pressure is even MORE ON when you check facebook every 2 minutes and see if anyone commented on your kinda cute, attention seeking, post-secret like status (Mine is currently" I practice favouritism at work and give people who smile at me or ask how am I more meat :P" So yes, I do practice favouritism because I am cool like that :D Also people I feel that they're cute, or just cause they're old. :D I like old people in Berwick (fiddler's green wtf google that up) cause they're just so happy-go-lucky and also cause I miss my grandparents (yeay 3rd day meat fast going well so far cause I had a lot of chewy breakfast bar FML)

And then you know that you're procrastinating and writing it in your blog. I am hopeless. T_T I really should stop fucking with my own life D:

Tire desire

Ohai.

Sorry haven't been updating lately because I am working!! Glad to say that at least I'm not spending half my day doing noting and end up doing nothing the entire day!! And I'm earning good money so it's all good!! EH I'm getting paid almost as good as a fresh grad k (well if i convert to Ringgit)! :P And I'm working on my long weekend so it's all good.

And the best thing I don't waste my time doing nothing. Like nothing, just spend hours on facebook doing nothing. Now, I spend my time more wisely after I come back from work, I take a nap then dinner and I do my assignments!! Hence the lack of updates.

Then today I decided to update you guys a little cause I have been MIA-ing for quite some time :( A lot of assignments piling up and they all add up to a 110% no joke!! 40% for E-marketing, 30% tax law, 25% MPI and 15% Accounting Theory =/ And these are 4 out of my 5 assignments this semester and... So sad to say this semester is ending soon it's coming to week 9 then its exam and it's I'll be going home for bout 2 weeks and back again =/

Life has been in deep dilemma these days I don't know if I wanna stay longer in Melbourne. And do something that I love like venturing into designing or culinary. I'm a lost soul.

But at least now the assignments and work are keeping me busy from thinking about so many things. It's true, I did grow a lot stronger from before. And I like it.