2010: Deux

I'm not prepared. I'm not prepared to get over 2010 and move onto 2011. As much as I hated this year cause there were lots and lots of unfortunate things happened, I still wish time stood by me slowly and didn't go by so quickly. =(

Not ready for the responsibilities that are yet to be installed for me, uncertain about what I want to do for the rest of my life. So many things happened. So many things out of my capabilities.

I'm finally home. I felt that I have more to do to contribute to this family than just wasting my time away, but staying in Melbourne is what I want, the lifestyle, the freedom, the ambiance. But family, they're holding me back. =(

I came back and I saw my grandma. She was sitting in front of the TV watching some nonsensical TVB drama that she didn't like but I know she was just waiting for me to come back. I asked her how she have been, and she told me she's been taking Panadol on a daily basis as a painkiller. I held back tears. Her exact words were "I take this like taking morphine, if I don't take it I cannot handle it". She's been having aching joints and have no strength to pull herself lately, it hurts a lot to hear that. I just want to be there for her, for them, give them a hand, hold their hands while they walk.

It's not that I'm heartless.

Tomorrow. =(

2010

This year, things have been well. Well, is an understatement because things that happened to me, taught me so much about so many things in life, be it for the future or just for now.

I've met people I hate and people that I like, to hangout with (not for life heh). Some left some stayed, some are still there eventhough they are not physically with me. Such things in life is what I'm always grateful for.

Luxury goods I've got more than what I wish for. I sometimes think that these things that are said to be planned, are actually for my benefit, I might sound self centred and too self absorbed but I am very thankful for what I'm getting now. From not getting a place to stay due to budget restrictions to apartments right smack in the city (Thanks Nancy and Rachel). I call this blessing in disguise, I searched high and low for a proper place to stay and there I go, with very nice apartments that I lived and living in right now. :)

Then there are the incidents that earned me something extra. Eg this very stupid incident that happened quite some time ago this year, not only did I got myself something new, but also I've learnt that how people can be all nice and giddy but all rotten inside. And I found that sometimes my parents are the only way for me to turn to, there are just some times that not all things can be shared among your sisters or friends. They've been through a lot more and they know how to handle situations like this.

Then there were the people that are faithful to me. Faithful in the sense that they stood by me (you know who you are =D). People who have been through so much together with this so called stranger that they've met in Melbourne. Nothing beats the feeling of having support from your friends.


In this season filled with joy and blessings, thank you so much for everything. Even when sometimes I don't believe in God (well in my case Buddha or insert your leader in your religion) I do, right now. I feel that I'm well protected and sometimes you do HAVE to giveup something because there are always better things installed. There are more than what we see and experience. It's just how we want to accept things and whether or not we have the patience.


Merry Christmas. And soon happy new year. :)

Inspiration: Shu Pei Qin

the collar.

3 years

dter 3 years of nonstop torturing, abundant of assignment, probably written over a million words for my reports and whatnots, I have finally graduated.

The chancellor was like "all the best in your future" in his fluffy cap.


Then off I go into this cruel world name the corporate world. Where people dress in structured suits, different shades of black (who knew right, black). Blistered toes from walking around the buildings, corporate talks, investments, sleepless nights.

I've yet to take my very first step into actually looking for a job, I'm doomed. I'm lost, as always. I'm still thinking if I want to stay on or go back, for good. Either way ends with a for good. I want to travel, alone, with someone, with family. Either way. With friends, aren't we all always blinded by chic flicks like Sex and the City, we stroll along the streets of Manhattan, laughters and heels, Gucci suits and Halston dresses. I want to do that some day but maybe just some other day, but not now. Right now I have more things to worry about.

Is this how it feels like? Not knowing where to go but given a slight chance of just trying and afraid of losing everything and failing? Is this what graduating is all about??

But I know no matter where I go or whatever I want to do, these people will always be there for me. Right?

3 years, 24 units, countless sleepless nights, teardrops, worries later, I've got this "key" to "success".


that's my dad behind looking super sian cause he's hungry and tired! :P

Oh how corny.

Say hi to Furry Soul

Was petting stuffed puppies and tickling their fake tummies. Makes me miss all my doggies!!!! =(((( Will only upload more pictures when my internet is more stable and faster!!! :D

Last two nights with nancy hurhur after that we'll be separated by like miles T_T and then end of my university life, everything will vanish into thin air, as if nothing has happened.

Bye Monash

I've got a new job in the unemployment line. Officially graduated and unemployed. :P

Hiatus?

Sorry for not updating properly lately but my sisters are here in Melbourne with me and my parents just touched down this morning!!!! :) Had scrumptious lunch and yummy desserts!! :) Don't expect much updates here cause my camera is half alive, I can only do manual focus now (not that I'm complaining, it's wayyyyyy less than half dead and I can still snap pretty pictures :D) And I did not take any pictures in Sydney cause my camera was well, in ICU. =( Anyway, watch this space! My graduation is this Thursday!!! *heart*

Argh I don't wanna leave Melbourne!!!! :(

=(

Remember these pictures and many other beautiful pictures that I took??

My camera is now in ICU, some random camera service center in Sydney. SYDNEY and I live in Melbourne T_T I'm now in Sydney for short holiday with my sisters and just got a fail tan and my poor camera is now in god knows whose hands =( Pray for me that he'll be fine. =( And stupid Sydney weather is getting so hot now I'm falling sick!!! Runny nose, aching skin. URGH!!!!

Time is your best companion

Because time is the only thing that goes along with you no matter what you're doing, whenever you are. But it'll never come again so it tells us to cherish each moment.

Yakitori waffle binge. Requested for a rainbow cake but didn't turn up cause none of my friends know how to bake (or the ones who erm celebrated with me haha). Sunsets, birds on my shirt and bird claw ring (NEW! :D). Obama was with me for my birthday with his wicked sunnies. And oh the bay view. How lovely.

Time, we'll never cross paths again.

Tan Fringe

I'm selling this baby away.

Made of 100% leather, suede texture (not pig skin)
Fits UK8 to UK12
Mint condition

AUD50/RM150

Such a steal.

Interested please email me at smilin_ting(@)hotmail.com for more details etc. :)


ps: i'm in Sydney now :D

20

Favourite shot of the day!! :D Complete with our chocolate front teeth. :)

Growing older never seem so fun.

PBS

PBS is short for Pre Birthday Syndrome. Many suffers from this syndrome will feel disappointed, or are afraid to be disappointed on their birthdays. Symptoms of the likes are such as anxiety (anxious about what they're gonna get on their birthdays i.e. smack in the face with cream/cake, getting a sex toy for their birthday etc), in a trance of positive thoughts that THE day will turn out well, saying things like they will just live the day like any other day etc.


Extracted from mustard's brain wtf.


I'm sure everyone has experienced that no?

And you know why I'm freaking out now? Because I'll finally be joining the 2 clan. I'm turning 20 and I'm already feeling that my metabolism is slowing down *drama*. Exactly one year ago I was pretending to be Alice in the Wonderland sitting on giant chairs at White Rabbit, SINGAPORE. That seemed like it never happened but it did, and it was a year ago. Then I met up with my current housemates (for which most of them have already moved out/returned home) at Rochester Park having Italian for lunch.

And 1 year and 1 day ago I had this bowl of a fringe name haircut. It has been a year. O_O

Has it been a year already?

Everything seemed to be unreal but then until you recall that you did this and this, took 8 paper sat on my butt flat on the chair in the racecourse (yes my uni is weird) and it hit you, everything did happened. Everything happened for a reason, it shaped the "me" of today, better or worse.

I told my grandma that I'm coming back to hunt for a job or be headhunted (wtf how isit possible meh) and she was quite disappointed. I mean, at least I'll give it a go. TRY.


Are we growing up too fast?

Margiela is that you!?

Remember this show?? hahaha cardboard tie IT STILL GETS ME EVERYTIME HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAA

And here's Maison Martin Margiela's SS11 collection (all cubic and "structured" no pun intended)

Looks like the french watch Stephen Chow too? :P


And check it this video it's beautiful :))))

Strawberriesssssss

HAHAHAA SO FUN!! Sorry some of the footage is shit but, this is some random midnight supper/dessert thing for the contractual friends so don't expect quality videos la!! :P NOMS Need to get vanilla essence.

What I've been up to

Long story cut short:

GUESS WHO GRADUATED!!! :D:D:D

I'm not too happy with my grades, well not too happy with one of the grades la cause I thought I'd do a lot better than a D. But I got 3Ds :D happy happy joy joy. :) Erm, but I need to go on a vegetarian diet again. It's my promise to my beloved Guan Yin Ma or whatever god that I'm praying to, I need to sacrifice something to get something right? :D yayyyyy Now I don't have to worry about calling people telling them I want to die cause I thought I might fail my accounting paper *touch wood*

Official results were published last night but I only manage to check it at 2am on the 4th December. Cause some stupid Monash Debtors problem -_- ccb not even my fault lor


Example of Melbourne's crazy weather.

It was sunny at like 3.45pm and at 4.12 pm I heard my housemate saying that weather forecast thunder storm.

I look out the sky it was like this

Then less than 5 minutes later, more dark clouds emerged covering the sky =/

Then 30 minutes later it was clear and all blue. And the sunset was Red. Gorgeous.

Then we were checking our letter boxes and guess what came!?? :)

My 15inch Cambridge Batchel (with top handle so it's call a batchel) in Mustard (actually is yellow but I wanna call it mustard :P) with my initials. <3


THANK YOU!!!!! :):):):)

And after some searching, I finally found amethyst pendant!!! :D Saw it on Garypeppervintage going for AUD49 without shipping and I got this for only $15!! Need to find a chain for it though =P

My week hasn't been too well. I mean it's not bad, but it's not fantastic either. Trying to settle my results stuff is tough shit. Had to go to the office several times and it's tiring okay -_- Keep rechecking fucking my.monash and finally paid off. Well at least I graduated. :P

And I'm turning 20 in less than 3 days D:

shit in my pants

AHHHHHH Results are out but I cannot get the results!!!


WHYYY!1///? I logged in and they say encumberance cannot retrieve information. What is this? Why me? WHY WHY WHYY=((((( I'm fucking scared now T_T


T________________T

Fancy Pants

This is a picture of crazy Nancy's mad high score for Veggie Samurai. How is that possible!?? And her highest dice chain is 130 plus. MAD.

And this is a picture of my favourite Starbucks drink, Caramel Macchiato. What not to love when a super cute barista asked "So Ting what else would you like?" I'd like to add a hot barista on top of the drinks with a dollop of whip cream on top thank you. :P But instead I replied "That's all". Damn maybe he was secretly waiting for me to say "I'll bring you home" wtf hahahaha


Sorry too much fantasies going on here. heh!

This is a picture of me staring at the boxes in my room that is yet to be filled with things before I move (procrastinating much) and to add on that, I received my Cambridge satchel. *heart heart heart heart* Thank you you know you are :):):) And now my room smells like leather in a bad way. Too much leather treatment I think =/ But not complaining cause it's complete with my initials. H.T. =DDD Yeah anyway I'll have more than 4 boxes cause jing left some shopping buys from asos and some other things so that'd be one box -_-



and this is me showing you my new MAXI PANTS! hahahahahahaha I told nancy this is maxi pants she went "are you serious" it's just long pants la. ok no it's actually a jumpsuit with the top tucked inside. SO AIRY, like not wearing pants. And to double that, I can make it to a jumpsuit if I like (all hail whoever who gave me the height I fret not wearing jumpsuits all my life except tight ones I don't want no cameltoes thank you and yeah the jumpsuit is a little short on me when I wear it as a jumpsuit =/)


and my belt is so long =PPP I can lie to people and say I'm too skinny so I have to wrap it around twice HAHAHAHAHHA ok you're not getting it.


And btw I think I fell in love with Country Road's ballet flats. So comfy.....