Post 107: I miss online so much....

Gawd...i havent been onlining for 48 hours...thats darn long for me... Cause I love online....can online can online....woohoo!

Oh yeah, last two days i went out with my sisters for an informal girl's night out wearing bermudas and t-shirt....And maybe its my PMS so i teared for some reason...and the reason is that we suddenly talked bout our childhood...to me, my childhood is empty but the only thing that i can remember is that when i was only 3, I was all alone cause my 2 sisters always play with themselves, So i can only play with Terri when she finish her chores...so she was sitting at a corner, then i play racing car by myself(i was the car and the driver making those vrooom sound) And i just trip and fell on the fire brick stairs at the corner and my lips bleed like nobody's business and haha...i cant remember things after that except i opened my eyes and i was lying on terri's bed with alot of people surrounding me and i drank Drinho soya bean milk....My mom told me that terri carried me to her and i was crying like shit then my mom bring me to my dad and according to her, I was damn afraid of my dad so I just shut my mouth up when i see my dad...I was so brave cause i think i does hurt alot...imagine, my lips almost crack into two parts(my under lips)and it was bleeding....i'm only a 3 year old kid that time for goodness sake...

Then my sis suddenly say: Do you remember whenever we goes to the swimming club, we will play a crocodile game when daddy will become the crocodilepretend to sleeping, then we will get a dry leaf and put beside him, then we will sneakily go steal the leaf(pretending to be some treasure)then the person who took the leaf will get caught by daddy and someone have to rescuee her....

Then something just touched my heart...I started tearing...sighs** Those days when i was still skinny and stuff...I remember i was only 18kgs when i was 7...I told my friends and they shoot those looks like I dun loook like I was 18 kgs last time...yeah...hello??& years has gone....my bones are so darn big now and I'm 175cm??

Screw those things...And yesterday was my very first time in 6 months time eating mcdonalds...So yummy but not so enough for me...the big eater...hahahahaha...

Oh yesterday i watched Guess(wo cai wo cai wo cai cai cai) it was a fat girl special....damn...i missed it...i wanna join and let those people know that we are human...not things that are borned for idiots to discriminate...fucking people....whats the wrong od being fat??I really dunno what the fuck with people who always discriminates the fat ones??Whats wrong with fat i ask you??Whats wrong? We are still human ok? Not freaks, aliens... If you are one those stupid fucking idiots who dislikes fat people....Just leave the world and no one will care.....

They dun even know how that person feel when you are saying bad bout the person....Do you know how people feel? What if these things happen to you? What will you think? Just like me...just because I'm tall and fat...stupid people calls me Sumo...Thats why i fucking hate them and i don't give a damn fuck to them....I just tell teacher and they're so darn dead...

And i know thats the whole damn reason of why i still dun have a boyfriend and in love now cause i dun appeal to people...cause I'm FAT! I dun care...Those people who thinks like that of me, I'm goona show a new me by next year...I dun care whether i got bullemic or whatever(which i never will) but i will be another Hui Ting next year when school starts....maybe even before school starts...maybe during prom....Dang....my sister will know the new me... I was thinking of going to my aunts place in Singapore to go on my diet since i can go shop there and she's leaving in a 12 storeys high building....I can run up and down everyday evening and night....just that night isnt so safe...But i can do it... Wait till I have a great bod...I can wear bikinis! haha! Just kidding...

I love james blunt more and more...