Maybe it is because of my PPPMSes...i have serious PMS cases so don't mind me...I dunno why i'm crying last night...For no reson i just thought of something then tears start to fall...
Yesterday i went out supper with sisters again...So they were both talking again and I just sit aside...as usual...Like i'm the outsider lend table from them only...They just talk about themselves..Then they were talking about their alma mater...also their secondary school life...alma mater means your secondary school life...Nowadays I'm being very very sensitive and ish...I cry when i listen to sad songs and I still dopn't learn any lesson i continue listening to sad songs...haha...Why i never learn...
Then i just think back...I tried killing myself lots of time though i did not try out...ause i'm such a coward...And it is true that i've never tried killing myself cause I'm not brave anough to hurt myself...so means that i'm a person who wouldn't kill myself...Then i think again...Maybe part of the reason of i did not kill myself is because of my friends...I don't want them to be sad about my death and also my family members...I don't like people around me to feel sad...
My second sis say that if she dies one day....she beg us not to mourn for her and it is a tradition to put the coprse in the coffin at your house to pray for a week...She say no need...Just bury her and let her rest in peace...no need to stop watching television for 100 days...just because she's dead..she ask us to continue our lives and don't give up the only thing that can make us forget her...also known as television...
yeha...how mulia is she...But how can we not respect her if she really dies...it is a tradition...so we cant dieobey it...*sighs*
Then i thought of alot of things last night canuse i cant sleep and forgotten...i'm so forgetful...haha...
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