I really really hate myself right now...

Since God knows when...I'e been hating myself alot...I don't know what's the reason of me being so hated by my ownself...Its like so weird...

No one's ever really cared for me...Not even when I need them badly...When I feel really really bad...No one knows about it...I won't be telling everyone Oh yeah I wanna kill myself cause I hate myself and I don'y other people to look at my hated by all face...So i wanna commit suicide...Its bad you know??? And people around me cnnot eveb feel the bad aura around them...stupid...no brains...

All these bad bad bad aura around me just won't go off...Once it has gone away...I know I won't hate myself that much anymore...And these aura won't just leave me alone and let myself be happy...That's why I still look so dark and ugly and look at my dark circles...HATE IT...And also...all these bad auras make myself look dull and ugly...

I HATE BAD AURA!

And the worst part is no one ever tried to make me feel better...Not even a tiny bit...But thanks to me amour husband...I feel better...cause she understands better than anyone else around me...You are wondering why is it a she...And you are right...it IS a she...

And as I feel so so so so so ugly...Standing in front of the mirror won;t even help now...Cause whenever I looked at the mirror...I HATE MYSELF EVER MORE!!!

Nothing can help me now...Unless the bad aura goes away...That's why I'm so down now...All down...Nothing's up...Nothing's up...No good aura...nothing will be up unless Miss/Mister Good Aura takes over...

Can anyone tell me where to find Miss/Mister Good Aura who's strong enough to take over the evil bad aura off me?