Her turn...Now My turn...

My sis....she got 9 As...My mom was like "so good ah...good la"

We went to school to just drop by and see and congratulate my sis...I didn't go down as I was wearing so terribly ugly, incase he's there...I don't wanna see people when I'm in that ugly outfit...

Urghh....It sucked...I went to Chili's again for celebration... I been to Chili's for like 3 or 4 times this month...My god...They should give me The award of Best Customer...

Words could not express the leng zai-ness of LeeHom...He's just soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo
Fucking handsome...he's like the only person who's so effing cute and handsome until I droooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooool
until I die...

Whatever...Not like I can go marry him or anything...

Not even Takeshi...Summroe you want me to marry LeeHom...

That's the main reason I wanna go study in the US...Cause takeshi's studying there...But my sisters told me that never on earth am I going to US to study...Why??Because it's dangerous there...Anytime, anywhere, some terrorrists will just bomb the place and I might die there...

Urghhh...I won'e be going to New York Fashion School...I won't go to IMG models or FORD models or whatever...

My dreams...All shattered...Like shredded paper...

Everything I always wanted...always couldn't get it...Exchange to Japan cancelled cause my dad say I have to go study instead wasting time for exchanging...Then the newly so clled planned trip to Japan...I would not be ging cause that time I won't be having holidays while my sisters have...Isn't that unfair??

It was not really planned yet and when my mom ask me "Will you be sad if your sisters go to Japan and you don't??"

That time I already wanna cry...But I was too hungry to cry...Makan....Diinnneerrr...

Shit..Holidays are boring...It will also be th last holiday that I could actually enjoy...Tye next holiday I will be having tuitions everyday, studying everyday, studying 12 hours everyday(excluding sleeping and eating time) and by that time my daddy will be telling me everyday that "you can watch TV for 20 minutes"

What's life then?? Living in this family is like living in a big fat bird cage...Going out also have to ask this ask that...I don't even have a bloody 10 feet wide room for MYSELF....I have to share...

I'm in bad bad bad bad mood these days...


Anyone got any sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad songs for me to listen?? To just cry my heart out?? Tell me the name...See whether do I have that in iTunes......

I'm writing nonsense here...

I need PS2...I need computer games...I'm gonna die of boredom...

But when I play PS2 or computer games...My daddy will be scolding me and asking what am I doing...


DIE

DIE

DIE

DIE

DIE!!!

The way I do that is kinda nice...I like the toning of the colour...Not bad girl...Not bad...