Without knowing how fast it is

It's that weird feeling again...



I'm growing up too fast... Too fast till i can't grip it... I can't even enjoy it properly... Stupid exams, stupid studies... I can't even feel anything about my own life... And things starting to flash in my mind...


Things like, when I get old still blogging. When I'm almost dying lying on the bed... So weird...


And I've been dreaming about some situations and it came true after a few months. But nowadays, the dream I dreamt about, it happen nearer and nearer to the day i dreamt...



I feel funny.... Butterflies flying inside my head...



Why is this happening??



I still remember the days jean ranting and nagging about, I can't wait to go college... But this thought always pop out whenever she says that


"I don't wanna go college. College means ending of high school lives, also equivalent to saying goodbyes to all my friends."

I hate saying goodbyes. Not even the type when someone's going home or whatsoever... I seem so selfish hor...


I heard Mel saying how she hates her sister and how bratty her sister is... Though I was one a few years back. But somehow, something ties the sisterhood together, and we're getting inseparable...


Some bonds that are irreplaceable....* to the left to the left*




And Xin's leaving this saturday night... Someone I havent been seeing for years... And she's back... It feels so weird... But it's like we're back to old times... Just that I'm taller now and she's skinnier... We may be besties for only a year... But it's also something that you can't get anywhere...



Also same to my darling YiNKy, I feel so sad having to say sorry to her on new year's eve... And I have to wait till the next holidays, which is like, new year's...I have a week of vacation...9 days... Hope she can stay for 7 days or longer...



emo sial