Back to BU

SMKBU sent me a letter. Asking me to attend Hari Anugerah...



Tak layan...


Damn tak payan... I reach there at 11 sharp. How nice of me as an ex student... Damn nice can!!


And and!! They ask me to register myself at 8 o'clock... I registered myself at 11.01 am. Tralalalalalalalala *stares off sky*



Standing at the canteen. I see juniors binging canteen food.

The nasi goreng I missed. And the Ayam masak merah I used to love during lunch...

Though too sweet and diluted and taste more like sugar water then Air Sirap. Their Air Sirap was the first and best Air Sirap.


The sentimental values is that counts...

Nasi Lemak I used to eat daily. Getting fatter and fatter each day. I missed it too...

I missed the 2 cute lil boys in the canteen. The 2 boys of the owner. One toddler and one boy. Both uber cute with anime eyes.

Now that my "favourite" hang out place is Asia Cafe. I miss my school canteen even more.


5 years my dear...


It's part of my childhood. Part of my life... More than a quarter of who I am right now...


I even missed the canteen owner...

The reunion of us smooching our trophies. This might be the last time we'll be doing this together again.

Sitting there while waiting for someone to fetch me home. It might also be the last time I'll be sitting here ever again. Cause the next time I come back, I might be driving already.


My camera always take great pictures in SMKBU. It must be God who gives the perfect lighting and nourish to all the plants. They grow nicely and healthily. They're almost flawless and so photogenic.


They've always looked great.




And also the company I have in the past 5 years.



I'm missing my high school more and more till I'm getting depress.


College is not what you think it is. It's not fun!! It's torture!!
Maybe Creamy will like it since he enjoys suffering...

I wished you turned up and see your glorious daughter who's receiving a token of appreciation.
I wished you turned up to see not getting straight As is not stupid.
I wished you turned up today because I want you to prove to me that you care
I wished that you turned up to prove what I've thought for all this while are wrong.
I wished that you turned up to see I am actually capable of doing something than what you think that I'm a nothing.
I wished you turned up to prove that you actually support what I'm doing
I wished you turned up so you won't disappoint me in the end.

But you did not

My heart is broken and I know where I stand now.

You disappoint me.


The relation now is like I get paid to be someone's daughter. Not even a favourite daughter or least one. But getting paid. I feel like some Hour maid service now. But my pay is considered good cause I don't have to really be a daughter because you weren't here for most of the time.

You should have known in the first place that I'm extremely emotional and you should know best why I was all black and gloomy and moody in the car on the way home.


Everything is answered in that second, that minute, that moment.