Missing

I woke up by the window, staring blankly into the ceiling...

With the solat maghrib magnified to the entire neighbourhood as my emo music, very annoying leh cannot sleep...


I was feeling really really really down... From the results to my life, to why I am thinking my mom hates me... To a lot a lot of stuff..


You call that emo...




I crave for Cintan Mushroom Chicken noodles...



Crave kao kao that type of craving...



I woke up, walked down to the kitchen and cooked a bowl...



I think it's the diet... I'm not feeling very happy... I miss eating carbs openly and wholeheartedly. I miss that feeling you BINGE into those fat fat carbs... It feels SO GOOD!! And it feels GREAT to feel fat...



Very very syok... After so many days...



I felt so contented, cause I was greeted with a big fat warm hug from my Choppy. He's never ever jumped up and down so happily before and I was more than welcome to hug him... More than I needed...



I realized... This place here, this blog, is the only place I can cry on, I can rely on... My only shoulder to cry on...


I can't possibly go to my parents and go BOOHOO I miss my Cintan noodles right, they will slap my face and kick me outta their room... -.-


I can't possibly go over to my grandparents and go BOOHOO too, they will tell my parents I'm slightly psychotic and my parents will kick me outta the house.

And I can't possibly go to my sisters and go BOOHOO (I tried once but failed miserably, I didn't felt any better) cause they have more important to love other than me though I know they love me helluva lot but still...



So here goes... So this is how an emo person emo... Like very very emo...











And YES!! you guessed it right... We spent almost 30 bucks wearing ugly clothes and took these pictures... I was makeup-less, sorta... =/ And it's sparkly so I don't mind...



I MISS EVERY SINGLE PEOPLE IN MY LIFE...


I miss talking...

I miss gossiping

I miss talking again...


It has only been ONE night...



"fuck you la emo bitch" you must be thinking aight?