Friday, February 04, 2011


Maybe I'm thinking too much but I feel that not a lot of people are of encouragement of me going on a "diet" and often many find it funny. haha. laugh it off. hui ting? Diet? They don't go together. But what is keeping me going on are all these laughters and words and whatsoever. I don't care if I'm not as thin as Megan Fox cause everyone knows she went under the knife, but I know one day I'll be the one laughing it off, I'll be the one saying I used to be fat or XXkgs. One day. That day will come soon. I said it already, 2011 is THE year for changes.

Hatreds aside, seriously, I am not too sure when was the last time I actually felt "full" and all I've been having was veggies and fruits (also cause I'm on the vegetarian thing again) oh god. I cannot wait till this ends. All will be good.... 15 more to go, just 15. At the mark of 10kgs, I shall reward myself with something. Something good, something I've been saving on. :D Nothing feels better than getting rewarded on something you've been working on for so hard, like a HD for an assignment.

I am not sure where this is going but I'm not developing an eating disorder, but even if it is, I hope I'll be able to continue my life as normal and maintain my after diet weight.

If these words aren't carved with insecurities, I don't know what is. I just want to be happy.