Isolation

I have been going to the gym like 5-6 times a week, but my weight is still the same, stomach's bloated and not much progress as of late.

Think it's the hormones working up??


Need major detox. And I just made cookies. HA!!! The irony.



Please don't take any of my advices I'm doing this cause I feel like it and have heard stories that it worked but do advise your physicist/doctor if you wish to proceed with anything!!!! I am no nutritionist or whatsoever, and I'm no professional!! Roar.

Have been taking protein shake with soy milk (taste awesome IMO, chocolate fudge pudding flavour with soy milk) I personally prefer it with soy milk cause I think I'm officially, unable to take fresh milk and have been running to the toilet very frequently when I have dairy =(. And no thanks to the lack of supplies in Malaysia, I'm paying some ridiculous amount for protein whey powder from GNC. Anyone knows any places that sells cheaper ones? I heard Ego Nutritions have cheaper ones but haven't checked out.


I "TRY" to take a lot of fruits lately. Loaded my fridge with grapes, watermelon and a HUGE papaya and bananas. Would love to have MORE berries in the fridge!!!! I don't know where this is leading but, yea, I am stuck at a plateau again and I'm even getting bored of it but no complains, I can see new dents on my shoulders and back, weights workout have been fun, now I wanna play with more machines =P



I'm not sure about you, but somehow I find my "gym" time, is like, isolation from everything. I feel HAPPY, walking around with sweat dripping down my neck and looking like a mess, smelling like shit HAHA. It's the time I find inner peace and look at muscle men working out, and getting inspirations from those fit people in the gym.

Like what my all time favourite fitblr always say "Iron always wins". Weights will not make you look like a body builder, it'll just help build muscles and muscles are always good in my opinion. :P


that's all.

Not dead.

Here.


And no, I hate giving, so you have to follow, wait for my approval, to get updates on my life, which is every like 2 minutes or so. And I have been spending too much time on tumblr looking at food pictures and binging. What's new?


OH, I'm tempted to get my tragus pierced, anyone knows anywhere good to do it? Erm, I actually prefer gun cause a lot cheaper but I've heard stories so, yeah needle's fine too but I have to pay a lot. meh.

What is up my sleeves?

Bag o' tricks I tell you.


What have I been up to? I've been eating too much for my own good, working out too much for my own good, baking too much to my own good to the extent that I bake about 3-4 times a week and almost finishing what I bake! HA!!!

So my life is basically, run some errands, spend too much time on tumblr looking at pretty food pictures and pretty skinny girls, bake, eat, workout, meetup with le bestie, sleep. Repeat cycle 7 times a week.



BUT, today is rather productive. I crashed my arms, did some crazy ab workout (the burn omg) and skipped cardio (phew). I cannot run to save my life, cannot cycle to save my life, cannot cross train for my own wellness. The only cardio I can ever finish is going for classes, for which I come out drenched in sweat, looking all disgusting. The best part is, people have been telling me they seen me at the gym and hello, CREEPY MUCH?!!????? I knew it okay, when people staring at me, and like when I look at them they continue looking, should we have a staring competition?? HAHAHAHAHAHAHA Come la say hi at least I don't feel like some weirdo, staring back like I wanna start a fight. And yes, reading the comments from anonymous commentators, freaks me out okay like, shit what was i wearing that day, I think my mascara melted or I had no makeup or my hair was in this crazy state when I just finished ab conditioning. -.- sexyness to the max.


Today's menu is.... BIKINI KILLER. Wen was telling me these awesome amazing nigella snicker peanut butter MUFFINS, for which I tried to bake once for my brother's birthday (Caramel filled cupcakes with snicker topping) and she told me there;s this other one with snickers IN the cupcake itself. Bikini killer cause every bar of Snickers contains 255 calories, there's peanut butter (about 100 cals per serving) butter, sugar, flour and chocolate chips. HUHU. BUT then again they are MUFFINS, without topping, so they are "healthier".

"We're not talking about strenuous exercise while mixing, we're talking about pure pleasure" - Nigella Lawson.



SUPER LOVE MY ROBERT GORDON MEASURING SPOONS AND CUPS :D And do you like my pink kitchen scale??? It cost me about half an arm, but it's okay, one of the BEST investments. :) Next up, prolly a Kitchenaid. :D Sponsors anyoneeee????? :D


ps: that lump of shit in the flour is actually peanut butter... See at least I **TRY** to make a healthier effort by using "no sugar added" peanut butter, and used 4 tbs instead of 6 tbs of sugar. I tried, but then I added extra chocolate chips and snickers later on <.<

Teeny weeny

Ultimate goal:

Is to fit into this bikini. And actually be able to afford buying this lovely swimsuit from miumiu, and wear it, and actually feel good wearing a bikini. roar.

Isn't this the most beautiful thing ever since McShaker fries?


And that ain't call no goal for no reason ok. I think I'll go with the navy one cause I'll look naked if I wear the nude one. :D

Thin air

I feel like I'm slowly disappearing. I don't know where this is leading me, I don't know what my mind wants, I don't know what my thoughts wander to, I'm lost.



And there's water shortage (I call it crisis) due to maintenance at some river tomorrow till the 24th June, I think I'm going to shower at the gym (that is not affected)

Dream on

dream /driːm/
a cherished aspiration, ambition, or ideal
a series of thoughts, images, and sensations occurring in a person's mind during sleep



You may say that I'm a dreamer, but I'm not the only one.




wakeup.
xx

Layers

HAPYY FATHER'S DAY DADDY HOE!!! You know, words can never express the love I have for my dad, even if I don't say it, I don't show it. Maybe it runs in the family, we don't show our love but it's like an understood thing. I know he sayangs me and he would know the time when I need a pat on the head (aww) or when I need some good pushing (like to get a job haha). And he secretly supports my dream to cook like a chef cause he gets to try some of the end products!!! And he's been telling me what I should cook for the auditions, but I went with my instincts la. Always go with your instincts I say.


Brother Hoe's birthday was last week and was supposed to bake some snicker cupcakes for him and his friends and their parents for his birthday lunch. I baked about 2 dozens (I took one to "taste") and he was in the kitchen while I was filling em cupcakes with caramel.


He said "You should keep your cupcakes properly cause the stray cats will come in and eat them"

I grinned. HAHA!! Windows sealed, doors close, the only cat that will eat them is my DAD! hahahahahaa

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FINALLY satisfied my cake cravings after reading this post from Smitten Kitchen. Ok fine, finally satisfied my craving for a real CAKE after talking about it over and over again on Twitter. Those who're following me, I'm sorry, I'm on cake craze, and the pictures on my dashboard ain't helping either!

I think my definition of a proper cake is... LAYERS. Layers and layers of cake. I get damn turned on when I see cakes with awesome buttercream, layered in between mousse or sponge or cheesecake. mmmmmmm.

Dobos Torte mustard style!





Can't be arsed for food photography but good enough to have a smart phone =P (yes I got my iphone after like... I dunno, damn long)


And yes, it's rest day. Rest day is bake day. :D

Log

I'm sorry if this is turning into a progress blog of some sort, but feel free to leave if you wish. Well I do "hope" that this is a real progress blog so then I'll be posting pictures of myself with some incredibly small waist with abs and some biceps to flaunt but no, not yet. T_T

Breakfast:
Special K cereal with yogurt drizzle with honey, cinnamon
1 medium banana

snack:
3 or 4 digestives biscuits (lost count)

lunch:
veggies (like a mixture of pumpkin, some unknown bitter veggie i think it's chinese spinach but I am quite sure I'm wrong and brinjal and some beans)
1 cup of milk (bad choice, I have the runs after 2 hours heh!)

snack:
digestives biscuits (seriously I need to stop this shit man, so addictive!)

dinner:
ba zhang (-_-)

after workout munch:
starbuck's banana chocolate chip muffin (!!!!! best shit ever, especially when heated omnomnomnom)


I'm sorry I'm a sucker for sweet stuff and I snack a lot and I'm eating like a monster. Supper sesh with brother later (if it's not cancelled la hahahaha) and god knows when I'll be binging on those digestives again. The solution is to FINISH IT and never buy them again (if I can refrain myself from buying).

workout:
warmup:
1km walk/run 1:1 ratio

shoulders/back/arms:
15 shoulder pull backs (can't remember the name to save my life) @ 15kgs X 4 reps
15 bicep curls @ 7lbs dumbbells X 3 reps
15 lateral raises @ 7lbs dumbbells X 3reps
15 front raises @ 7lbs dumbbells x 3 reps
15 dunno what but for the shoulders @ 20kgs x 5 reps

abs:
1:30 minutes plank
15 bicycle crunch
15 90 degree leg raise
leg raises till failure (my lower ab was hurting so bad but syok haha)
reverse crunches till failure
crunch on balancing ball till failure
50 seconds plank

cardio:
15 minutes on cross trainer

seriously my workout is like... rojak T___T I don't even know if I'm doing it right but fts I'm feeling the burn!!! And love it when instructors tells you if you're doing it right or wrong and tells you the right way!! (and best part I didn't ask for it hahahaha)


REST DAY TOMORROW! :D:D:D:D I love how my days sorta matches with letters cause Saturdays are for snacking wtf (i need to stoppppppppp!!!! But my Snickers! See starts with an 'S' haha) so yea.

Yah I'm doing this all for ONE SOLE REASON, I wanna look good and feel good. hmm hmmmm all of this puzzle pieces will come together, very soon, very very soon. Prolly in a few months time (hopefully :P)


And although this whole journey is taking longer than I thought, so far it's been working well, and the longer it takes to reach your goal, the longer you'll maintain in shape (providing I don't snack like I do now). My ultimate goal was to be what 55 kgs by June (already passed and I'm way beyond 55kgs) but really, I don't really care what my weight is now, I weigh myself for the sake of weighing. I've been drinking what? 2.5 litres of water, and gaining and losing water weight from sweating and drinking more water, and the amount of food I take in, and I lose weight when I shit? Seriously...


And I'm REALLY happy with my progress on my legs!!!!!! :D I thought like "eh the mirror at the group studio cheat one". but when I went back home, I went to another gym, they look the same heheheheh. Well at least now, they are FITTA and STRONGA (sorry i had to hahahaha).


Now now, tummy please, behave. And I hope I'll stop behaving like a klutz during classes -_- I almost tripped and fell and hit my head on the stage once, was drinking water and my bottle cap fell down the stairs (quite glad wasn't ME falling down the stairs) and all I could do was hold in the sip of water I had in my mouth and watch it fall down step by step -_- Was doing lunges and couldn't balance and my knee hit the floor and I got bruises ya'll. -_-


End of update. Please sweat more people. Sweating is good. And if you're still sweating, you're still alive.

Days of my Life

This pretty much sums up my life these days. Haven't been taking pictures, haven't been going out, haven't been eating normally. I eat like a monster these days but hallelujah so far no weight gain, but I love digestives biscuits, do you????? Mcvities are the best but they crumble so easily. -.- And I have an obsession with Snickers now.=( I sneaked a bar into my own basket wtf (how is that even possible right haha) and yea, it's still on the counter top, waiting for one fine day when I'm suppose to snack *shifty eyes*

probably one of the worst decision to follow a food tumblr. -_- they update every minute from submissions and their own posts and it's just crazy. All I see is CAKE. Even my tweets are #cake. HAHA I've been eating a lot of cupcakes, muffins lately. MUFFIN TOP BE GONE!!!

I'm so into pink lately. I wanna buy pink shoes pink shirt pink pants pink bag I even wanna dye my hair pink T_T

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I have this VERY strong urge to tell some of the attendants in my gym class that, they are doing very well (And can tell that they are trying to lose weight) and have progressed a lot since I first saw them and keep up their efforts. roar. Why is it so hard to say random things to strangers and not being stared at like a weirdo.

And hahahahahahaha SCREAMED my lungs out during class today my shoulders are BURNING. Shouting doesn't mean that I have problems ok, fun to punch kick shout! #thatawkwardmoment when I was the only one who shouted. lol.



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OHAI I AM AWESOME.

Answer my prayers

random snippets of Bangkok. Main reason for the trip is for me to pray, for luck, health, love, succeess, prosperity and whatever that I wish for. Do you believe in this sorta thing? I mean be it you're Muslim, Christian, Buddhist, Jewish etc, do you feel like giving up when your prayers are not answered or what you wish for is not granted?

I believe that for the things that I've prayed for, opportunities are given, but it is up to you to take a chance. It might be hard, but when the chance comes, you gotta grasp it. Run as hard as you can, till you reach the end.


ps: hahahaahahahhaha at the dog with the 3D glasses hahaha took it at one of the train stops.


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I'm so thankful for the comments I received from my friends regarding my weight loss! I feel that whatever that you aim to do, when you have an intention, the aim seem so much attainable. :) HAHA Funny that some of my friends have been asking me "eh teach me".



You don't know how much this means to me. :)


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Random, but remember my colourful nails I painted on using the testers at Sephora by OPI? The mint green stained my fingers and they now look like they're bruised. -.- Put on your base coats girls!!


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I should take a chance. Do it.

=D

All I can say is, you're missing out A WHOLE LOT if you're not following me on Twitter.

New Clothes for me!

If there is one thing that I'm so so so frustrated about these fitness thing is that, after all the weight I lost (a few kgs only, nothing much don't be shock!!), is that my clothes no longer fit that well. Especially my bottoms!!

Yes, the before after pics I've shown before was pretty drastic and some of my pants are falling off my hips. But the attachment you have for a piece of clothing is just, I dunno you can't really describe that feeling but you just have an emotional attachment towards each and every piece of clothing you have, right? Or am I right?

During Wen's buying trip in Korea (was vacation for me and Jing though haha) I was really happy cause I could actually fit in most of the clothes!! Providing some came with sizes, I could fit into a size M (some L la haha) and that was before I look a lot "thinner" (the weight loss thing only became obvious around end of April, early May).

And with the confidence I gained from all these hard work, I'd love to wear nice clothes too!!! And with pretty clothes, confidence will come naturally from within =P For me at least!


And because good things are meant to be shared and because I do, really love love love pretty clothes, I'd like to share with you Azorias. My sister's and her partners' brainchild resulting from seceral months of brain juice squeezing sesh, brainstorming day and night. Bringing you work and play outfits exclusively brought in from Korea, in tip top quality (Seriously, every single piece of clothing I got from Korea is like heaven and hell compared to the shit I bought in Bkk no offense!!) and god I just love how the silky chiffon tops slides on my skin when I wear them =3


Remember this dress?? I call this my Lucky Dress cause I wore this to my first auditions for Masterchef!! :D

I love the print, I love the cut, I love everything about the dress!!! I even wore it as a skirt! =p My mom's best friend was like "Hey I thought this is a dress" I replied "I tucked it in and wore a top over". They looked at me with the biggest glare with a virtual light bulb on top of their heads lol.

To those of you who're asking (about the dress, it's sold out already!!!) about the Masterchef auditions results, it's not out yet!! I too, am super excited/ganjiong/anxious about the results!! Please pray hard hard for me k?

Pleated skorts. For which I absolutely adore. Love the gorgeous pleats and the grosgrain trimming. And for once I could fit into an M, what not to love? :D GROSGRAIN. :D

Floral Georgette printed blouse, I love this piece cause it looks a little like the infamous ACNE piece, but better! With bias hems and so slouchy and comfy, I wore this to Deadmau5 concert and it was the best choice, airy!!! :D


Sheer Trench (Stella McCartney suck my toes cause you're so overpriced!) I got this obsession with sheer trench after watching Project Runway which Rachel (i think that's her name) created a sheer trench coat, it was divine! I got this too!! Will definitely take pics of me wearing it =p



Cape back chiffon blousson. Not sure about you, but the humid weather of Malaysia makes me wanna wear some open back tops. Love the open back cape design, and I can finally show my sexy back!! You know that line down your back? Yea that one, I finally have some haha!!



Bias Hem Waterfall Chiffon Skirt. I've been looking for an asymmetrical skirt for the longest time after seeing Topshop UK having some. But the floral prints were a tad too cliche with the spring/summer campaign going on. Perfect colour, light weight and I can tie up the side and make it something funky!! :D Ok that reminds me I need to snag up a piece too ehehehehe


By the way, new arrivals just launched at AZORIAS. Hop on and get started on shopping. ;)

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